Yesterday I was told by a friend of mine that I didn’t have to try so hard, but if there is something worthwhile in life you have to work for it, this I have learned in my 40 years of life.
Nothing in this life comes easy.
Today by the same friend, I was referred to as someone who was really persistent. AND it goes without saying, it takes persistence in order to be successful at having the things that ARE worthwhile in this life.
I guess it could be kind of discouraging to be told these things by the person that all of this hard work and persistence is being expended for, but in the long run, isn’t that the stuff that devotion and dedication is made of???
If I were to allow faithlessness and doubt be the fuel of my desires I would never be able to LOVE what I love. I want what and who I want, and I should be allowed to love it and who I want in my way as long as it doesn’t hurt it or him.
As far as I can tell, in this world there is a lack of true dedication and devotion for the things that are worthwhile and wonderful.
I refuse to give up on what I believe, because maybe he doesn’t believe. Maybe he doesn’t believe it could be real cause no one has ever truly shown him that they are willing to go through hell and high water to show him that he wants him or he could truly LOVE him for him.
Well, then yes! I am persistent and I try too hard, but if at the end of this life I die happy and I die for him, it’s because HE IS worth it, and I will love him like no one else has ever loved him. No one can govern the heart, and no one can stop destiny.
AND I cannot say for sure why exactly I am compelled to follow my heart, but if for anything else, I am a MUCH better spirit in the scheme of enlightened things cause I refuse to give up, and I WON’T let doubt drive my ambitions and desires.
I will follow my heart wherever it may lead and if it LEADS me to HIM to show him REAL love than it will be worth all the frustrations and efforts to GIVE him my HEART!
I truly BELIEVE this.
I pray the rest of the world would share my desire, but more than anything I pray for him, that HE will see true LOVE, and not turn it away when it comes for him.
